2022 Goals

Last year, I didn’t set goals, really. I mean, I set some down on paper, in the real world, but I didn’t dig deeply into them. I hit maybe 3/4 of them, and the remaining 1/4 on review were either stretch goals for the sake of stretch goals or not the right direction. I’m fine with that.

My 2020 goals were deeply mixed, as I’m sure was the same for a lot of people.

Here I am, in the beginning of 2022, returning to a more traditional goals post, however. I found that it was good to give my brain the year off, but that now I want some more focus again. I’ve written quite a few goals out by category, and am not sharing all of them here. (Not least because you come here for horses and sometimes books and my house, not for my day job or my increasingly-busy political work.)

So: what’s on tap for 2022:


  • blog once a week
  • take 30 lessons
  • read 5 horse books
  • purge horse stuff
  • hit someday savings goal [amount not disclosed, a fund that could cover truck/trailer/next horse]


  • finish nook room
  • finish last guest bedroom
  • scope out downstairs bathroom project
  • work on sun room windows
  • organize tools

Bel Joeor Metier

  • achieve some level of growth over 2021
  • sponsor 3 shows or riders
  • sell in-person at least once
  • conduct a full inventory of fabric
  • buy supplies with more intentionality

Final 2021 Reading Post

Last year, I didn’t write public goals necessarily, but I did commit to some reading goals. Here’s my final wrap-up of how those went.

Here’s how things ended up:

  • one book in French (0/1)
  • five books about horses (5/5)
  • five books about Vermont (6/5)
  • five books from the “to be read” pile (5/5)
  • one book of poetry (0/1)
  • one play (0/1)
  • five books by authors of color (12/5)
  • three books about museums (4/3)
  • five award nominees (Hugo, Nebula, Dragon, Pulitzer, etc.) (7/5)
  • two books about science (2/2)
  • three classics (3/3)
  • three books about organizing/politics (4/3)
  • three memoirs or biographies (5/3)

I read a total of 116 books in 2021, which was past my first goal of 75 and then my second goal of 100. Reading was a good place for my brain in 2021.

Obviously, there were some things I just didn’t hit. Of them, I’m only really disappointed about the book in French, because I can feel my fluency slipping away a little more each year. I read a fair amount of poetry, just not all together, and reading a play was a stretch goal that I would have to be intentional about and just did not happen.

Here’s a very quick hit list of my 5 star reads this year:

To Be Taught, If Fortunate by Becky Chambers
The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet by Becky Chambers (+ the other three books in the Wayfarers series)
Conversations with a Prince: A Year of Riding at East Hill Farm by Helen Husher (look out for a review post about this in the new year)
The 99% Invisible City by Roman Mars
Charity and Sylvia by Rachel Hope Cleves
The Most Famous Man in America by Debby Applegate
Can’t Even: How Millennials Became the Burnout Generation by Anne Helen Peterson
The Goblin Emperor by Katherine Addison
Happy City by Charles Montgomery
Firsting and Lasting by Jean M. O’Brien
Dread Nation by Justina Ireland
A Deadly Education by Naomi Novik
A Court of Silver Flames by Sarah J. Maas
The Age of the Horse by Susanna Forest

If I had to cherry pick even among those I’d say:

Nonfiction book that I loved the most: The Most Famous Man in America by Debby Applegate. This had been on my to-read list for years because I have always been curious about Henry Ward Beecher, and this book totally blew my mind with its skill on every level – history, biography, writing.

Fiction book that I loved the most: The Goblin Emperor by Katherine Addison. Looooooooooooved this book. It’s weird to call a long, complicated high fantasy book about court intrigue a comfort book but wow, did this book just make my brain deliriously happy to read.

Most compulsively readable: A Deadly Education by Naomi Novik. Could. not. put. it. down.

Book that improved my brain the most in 2021: Firsting and Lasting by Jean M. O’Brien. This is a meticulous, careful accounting of the ways in which native people were displaced in local history in New England. The things she did with sources, the ways she reshaped historiography I’ve had in my head since grad school, the ways it has influenced my own work and the way I see the historical landscape around me – all immeasurable. I immediately loaned it to my boss and we talked about it weekly for months, no exaggeration. (Please note if this makes you want to run out and pick it up that it is a very academic work, dense and slow to read and it took me, who does this for a living, almost a month to work through and digest. Which is not to cast any aspersions on anyone’s intelligence and/or reading level – simply to give you a heads up for what you might get into!)

Book that disappointed me the most: Caste by Isabel Wilkerson. Her history was just bad. I ended up digging through her citations and then I got to be the asshole at my book club who complained about the hot book of the moment. I do not disagree with her larger thesis, but this was just…sloppy and polemical.

Overall, another notable thing about my reading for 2021 was that I read a lot more physical books. For years I was a Kindle-first reader, getting books from the library five or six at a time and blasting through them. Sometime in 2020 I started to struggle with that, and started to buy more books, and started to vigorously use the ILL system at my local library. It was a great change for everything but my bank account. (Ok, and maybe my library shelves.) Reading physical books has helped me build focus, keep away from screens, and engage more deeply with the material.

What’s ahead for 2022? More reading, of course. I’ve got an overall goal of 100 books and may post about categories again; look for that goal-setting post in the next week or two.


New Halter Reveal

First of all: THANK YOU to everyone who provided advice and expertise on my request for a custom halter for Tristan for Christmas. I spent a loooooooooong time on every single website or supplier that everyone suggested, tweaking and poking and trying to get things just right.

In the end, I ordered a halter from the Tack Shop of Ocala, because it got me the closest to what I had imagined. Everywhere else was missing one item from the list.

I ordered their “custom padded show halter” even though it will be his everyday turnout halter because fuck it, he’s 26 and I wanted it and I’m past “saving” things. Fancy halter for turnout it is!

I got 3/4″ black leather with dark gray padding, chrome hardware, and a chrome nameplate with “Tristan” in their Minion font.

I was back and forth on padding before ordering, and then even after. I lived through the “white padding on everything” phase of 2005 – 2008, and I definitely owned a white padded black halter for him at one point. But I didn’t want this halter to pop too much, or to look too out of date. Honestly, if I could have ordered the halter without padding, I probably would have. (And yeah, I probably could have, but laziness kicked in at the last moment.)

It arrived late last week (so about a 3 week turnaround, pretty darn good) and I could not possibly be more delighted with it.

So, the great reveal:

And you know what? After all that back and forth about the padding, it looks terrific. With the 3/4″ width it’s pretty small, and the dark gray is really subtle and just sort of adds depth to the halter without jumping out at it.

I’ve gotten a ton of compliments on it already, and it makes me really happy to see on him. I’m thrilled.


DIY Winter Hay Feeder

As I wrote earlier, Tristan is going to get some different turnout options this winter to hopefully encourage him to move around more. One of those options may be to turn out in the jump ring. It’s not electrified, but he’s pretty good with fences.

If that does come to pass, I want to work on a hay feeder solution for him so we’re not scattering hay in the jump ring.

So: I’m doing some investigating and experimenting, and would appreciate any suggestions anyone has.

Here’s what I am looking for:

  • something DIY; I’m hoping for something I can build and then tweak myself
  • will pull down a grate/bag/net as the hay is eaten down (so it’s never loose)
  • small-ish; I don’t need a full giant thing, just something to hold 2-3 flakes at a time
  • needs to be able to live outside during a Vermont winter

Any ideas or pointing me toward tutorials are welcome!


Persistent Ventral Edema

Doesn’t that sound like a very clinical title?

Basically, one of Tristan’s old man things has become persistent edema on his stomach. Some days, it’s mostly up near his sheath. Some days, it extends along his ventral line – the center of his stomach – almost to the girth area.

It’s a fairly hard edema, but it is a pitting edema. In other words, when you push a finger into it, it gives, and leaves a slight dent that fills in slowly.

I know some of you are reading this and freaking out a bit, because when you google “ventral edema” you get nothing but bad news. It’s frequently indicative of some kind of system or organ failure. Heart, kidney, and liver are the most likely culprits.

He started showing this in the summer of 2020, and at that time the vet pulled a CBC panel on him, which came back pretty darn normal, so we waited.

If you look very closely at his belly, you can sort of see that the fur right where his clip ends is a little poofier than it should be – that’s a bit of a hint of the edema.

Last week, while the vet was out for his fall shots, we examined him again and had a good long conversation about it. The vet pulled blood to run a CBC and also to check on packed cell volume (basically, how many red blood cells per unit were in his blood) and total protein. We also talked through the idea of congestive heart failure.

The vet did a full, thorough physical examination, and I reported on how he’s going right now – really darn well. He’s fitting up nicely, adding muscle (as best he can, he’s slow to do it because of his Cushings), and comfortable in his 4 days a week of solid work in a program. He coughs a little bit while warming up, but not again once he’s fully into his work.

The vet thought that if he had any kind of real internal problems, he would have a secondary constellation of symptoms – for congestive heart failure, he would be struggling with his work, coughing more, sluggish, you name it. Right now, I would describe his physical limitations as muscle, not wind – as we ask him for more self-carriage, he’s getting tired but not out of breath. And when he does start breathing hard, his recovery time is fine.

This week, the blood work came back pretty darn near perfect. His white blood cell count is a tiny bit low, but it often is. His packed cell volume is the tiniest bit low, but nothing at all to worry about. Everything else is pretty normal.

So that means we’re looking at our other theory: he’s just not moving around enough in turnout. He’s in a somewhat small dry lot right now, since his allergies flared badly this year and it’s a dangerous time of year for his Cushings. I talked things through with the barn manager and we have some options, so – we’ll see what we can do for him as fall continues into winter.


Seeking: New Halter

At some point soon I will do a review of the Two Horse Tack halter Tristan has been in for almost two years, but today is not that day. It has served its purpose admirably – to get beat up and soaked with disinfectant constantly – but I am ready to go back to a proper leather halter.

I’ve decided a really nice new halter will be Tristan’s Christmas present this year, so I am asking for advice.

I know what I want:

  • black leather
  • 3/4″ leather width
  • good nameplate (true deep engraving, none of this surface engraving that scratches off in 3 months)
  • maybe gray padding?
  • nickel/silver hardware
  • clip attachment at chin, NOT bolt snap

So far in perusing various websites, I can’t yet hit all of these things. The 3/4″ width leather is the trickiest. I know it’s non-standard, but it’s what I ordered his Two Horse Tack halter in and I’ve kind of fallen in love with the way it refines his thick mustang head a little bit.

Here he is in the THT halter, for reference, so you can see what I mean by the 3/4″ width just working a bit better for him.

Any suggestions?


Measuring Day

What’s the saying? You can’t improve what you don’t measure?

It doesn’t quite apply to horses in the same way as it does to nonprofit programs, but still.

Last week, our barn hosted a sort of fun little measurement clinic. The feed rep and the vet were out. Originally there was supposed to be a big flat scale, but it broke right before I got there, sadly.

We still did a couple of other measuring type things! First up: height. Tristan measured exactly 15hh, which is about right. I’ve had him at 15hh 1/2 and usually rounded up to 15.1hh in the way that horse people do. It was fun to get the proper stick out, rather than just do the tape from the ground, which is how I’d always measured him before.

We also measured him front-to-back just for kicks. (Yeah, I probably could have knocked a little more mud off, #sorrynotsorry.)

He measured at 73″, which was as expected. He tends to be either a snug 72 or a roomy 74. Generally I order him a 72 in the Smartpak blankets, since they seem to fit his body type well.

Finally, though I did not get a photo, we weight-taped him at 996 lbs, which the barn manager thought was spot-on and I thought was a touch light. The idea was originally to compare the weight tape to the flat scale for fun. The good news is that next week the vet & feed rep will be back with the scales, so we can check again then!

So there you have it. He really is a little thing. Large for a mustang, but small compared to the big fancy dressage horses that are more typical at my barn.


House Post: Window Deconstruction

I’ve made a few oblique mentions in the past to our looming window project, and it’s finally time to start addressing it.

We have about 45 windows in the house, spread across two floors, the basement, and the attic. Every single one needs attention of some kind. I’ve known this since we moved in. All of the windows are original to the house (or more accurately to the construction of some pieces of the house; they are of different eras depending on additions).

A short list of known problems includes missing or damaged caulking around the storm windows, missing or damaged glazing, broken panes, broken sash cords, missing sash weights, open & uninsulated cavities, and a wide variety of paint issues on the windows, the sills, and the framing.

Last weekend, my father-in-law was visiting and we spent about six hours making preliminary investigation on our windows. My goal was simply to figure out how to take them apart, because that is the first step to addressing all of the other problems. While we were working, we also replaced the sash cords on the window, since three out of four were broken and the fourth was old and brittle.

I don’t expect that future windows will take six hours to take apart; we were moving slowly and deliberately in order to figure out the puzzle and make sure we could get it back together.

So now I have a roadmap forward. Next summer – when we can have the windows open or missing for a time – we will start with the sunroom windows, which face the elements the most and have taken a beating. If I can get the 8 windows in that room finished next summer, I’ll be happy.


Recycle Balls Green Gold Horse Footing at East Hill Farm

A few weeks ago, my barn upgraded the footing in our indoor with a cool new product. I’ve ridden and longed in it a number of times since then, and it is super cool.

The product they used is called Recycle Balls Green Gold Horse Footing, and it is exactly what it says it is: recycled tennis balls!

The Recycle Balls company works with Wilson, a tennis gear maker, to turn “dead” tennis balls into all sorts of new things. If you’ve ever played tennis, you know that tennis balls lose their bounce quickly. If you’re super into tennis, you always play with a brand new ball, from a can you’ve just unsealed. (This is where I should confess to being a truly terrible tennis player, despite having two parents who were Division 1 tennis players; I have hand-eye coordination that should probably be measured in negative numbers. But I do know a fair bit about the sport thanks to years of exposure by my parents and later in-laws.)

Recycle Balls puts these bins at tennis facilities that come with shipping labels already on them. You put them out by courts and players stuff their dead tennis balls into them, and when they’re full, they get shipped off to the company, which turns them into all sorts of clever things. (One of their products: huuuuuuge boxes of used tennis balls for dogs at super cheap prices; if you have a ball-mad dog in your life, this would be a perfect gift.)

Bonus: it’s a Vermont company, and you all know how I feel about Vermont.

One of their flagship products right now is their Green Gold Horse Footing. We got two huge bales of it delivered (the smaller one is pictured above, and is maybe 50″ square), and a few truckloads of sand, and it all got mixed in to the indoor arena. The Green Gold footing is both fiber and rubber bits, all mixed up together already, so it has the best qualities of both: bounce and moisture absorption.

Here’s a fun time lapse of the footing going in:

I’ve now ridden in it about a dozen times, longed a few times, and watched quite a few horses go in it and it is great. Tristan, who is only vocal about footing when it is really good or really bad, loves it. He’s clearly happier and more comfortable in it. I’ll be perfectly honest: for some time I’ve had in mind a draft post about “how can I tell if my horse likes the footing?” or something like that, because it’s not my strong suit. I wasn’t sure if I could tell. Well, it turns out I can tell!

So: product endorsement from the picky owner of a 26 year old senior horse in active dressage work. This stuff is awesome.

Plus, and I feel like this should not be underestimated, it looks SO. FREAKING. COOL.

That’s not a trick of the light! It really does look neon green! It’s so cheerful and bright and light and fun. I adore it.

Interestingly, and everyone who rides in it has observed this phenomenon, when you drag it you can barely see the green. Here’s what it looks like soon after being dragged.

Then at the end of the day, after a bunch of horses have ridden in it, more of the green fiber sifts to the top. Then you turn it over and the whole thing repeats.

I’m posting this first because I love the footing – I got to see it go in and rode on it and was delighted. Then I found out that they sponsored my trainer to help us put it in. Win-win.

If you’re looking to upgrade your horse arena footing, you absolutely need to talk to Recycle Balls about their Green Gold footing.


Lesson Notes: Outside Flexion

I had a lesson this afternoon with the barn owner / main trainer, who I rarely ride with for lots of reasons – most of them schedule. But I’d been hoping to get a time with her before she heads to Florida and today worked out!

I clipped Tris just a little bit before the lesson, since he is fully fuzzy and it was 75 this afternoon, and crossed my fingers that it would not set him off. It did not! And he was hot and blowing enough that I was glad I did it.

Overall, I was really happy with how it went. Some things went well, some things I was able to fix, some things I can take away and chew on. Brief notes:

– we worked on counterflexion on the long sides as a way to keep him straight through his shoulders; flex a smidge to the outside and think of the inside rein as the rounding rein, then drive him forward through that momentary channel. Keep repeating that in tiny increments and think of building power and push through like climbing up a staircase, a little bit at a time.

– my posting mechanic is screwy lately. I am lagging a hair behind him, which is making me fall too far back in the saddle, putting me out of sync with him and catching him in the mouth just the tiniest bit – but enough to back him off when my leg his telling him to go

– we worked on sitting trot for a while without stirrups, which has become a very good way for me to access his hind legs and bring them up for better collection. He is verrrrrry heavy but we integrated some of the counterflexion from earlier and he started to get softer

– need to work on keeping my hands forward. Some more. Always. Sigh.

I have been slacking on the gym and can feel the difference in my posting mechanic especially, but I am in an ugly mental place about the gym. I want badly to go back, but doing so means a very early morning wake up call (the only time that fits my schedule) and worrying about COVID exposure. So…I have been working hard to integrate more exercise in all areas of my life, but it’s not enough. In short, stupid COVID.