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Boston Strong

In 95% of first-time conversations in the state of Vermont, one person asks the other: “Are you a native Vermonter?” or some variation on that question. Migration is a huge issue throughout the state’s history; all that coming and going, especially in the last few decades, means that it’s rare for a person to have more than one or two generations in the state. Those with longer genealogies wear them as a badge of pride.

The right answer to the question is that you are from Vermont; the next-best-thing is to prove, somehow, that you wish you were. I tend to equivocate, and say that I came up for college, and lived here for a few years; then I left; now I’m back.

Today, someone asked me the question and I said firmly and proudly, “No. I’m from Boston.”

One year ago today, I was frantically flipping from channel to channel, listening to NPR, refreshing Boston.com, refreshing Facebook, refreshing Twitter. I had friends running the Marathon. I had friends watching from the sidelines. I had been a spectator myself, many times.

Everyone I knew was okay, but I remember the feeling of desperate heartbreak, and distance, and deeply personal grief like it was yesterday. It still is yesterday, in a way.

It turns out not everyone I knew was okay, after all. Two days later, a man I had known as a boy – in passing – in the hallway – in the cafeteria – never too well but well enough to picture his face immediately when I heard – was killed. His name was Sean Collier.

Thank you to the helpers, and may Boston continue to stay strong.

road hacking

Mud Season Hack (Again)

Sunday was an hour of road hacking with a friend – up, down, up again. Tristan was jigging his way downhill again so I did get off and handwalk him. I am a bit frustrated by finding the balance between “nice big forward walk home” and “jig jig jig until you trip.” Sitting deep and quiet is one thing; hauling on his mouth to no effect is another.

That said: at about the 45 minute mark he gets much better. He eases into it and focuses on the road ahead instead of the barn behind. The solution here might be just to keep him out for longer. Possibly this Sunday we can hit another road and do 45 minutes out, 45 minutes back.

Before then, we need to get back in the ring. I haven’t schooled him outside of a lesson in 3 weeks, yikes. I am the worst. I just keep getting to the barn and tacking him up and then being physically unable to set foot in the ring, so we head outside instead.

Monday was shot #2 in his loading doses of Pentosan, and this should start to be the tipping point of feeling better – this week or next. We’ll see. Tonight the temperature will drop about 40 degrees and we’ll get an inch or two of that-four-letter-word-that-starts-with-s. Then tomorrow spring will arrive for good. (I know I keep saying and thinking that, but eventually it has to be true, right?)

someday farm

Horse Finances

When I moved from Massachusetts to Vermont, I took a 25% hit in salary. I knew what I was doing, and I traded up in job, lifestyle, and overall happiness.

That still didn’t make looking at the cheerful Turbo Tax comparison of 2012 and 2013 any easier!
However: that hit means that for the first time ever, I am enjoying a decent tax return. Some of it is going into the black hole in my budget labeled “brother’s fall wedding.” ($500 and counting, and let’s just say that the bridal shower plans – in which I must participate but do not have much of a say – are making me feel faint.)
The rest? The rest is going toward the savings account that I have had for several years now. It is labeled “Someday Farm.” That savings account was gutted with Tristan’s surgery (it was one of three savings accounts that vanished in a puff of smoke in 3 months) but I have been slowly, slowly adding to it. Interest on other savings accounts. The odd extra money from the budget. 
It’s not much, but every bit counts. Tristan turned 19 on Friday, and my driving, overarching goal in life is to give him a farm to retire on. Somewhere he can have acres of grass and a turnout shed and nap on sunny knolls in the afternoon, and a barn I can visit in the middle of the night to kiss his nose.
I’m still far from that goal, but it’s not totally out of the question. By that time, the savings account will have been named Someday Farm for so long I might just get a real, actual sign for the road and call the place that after all.
winter

Worst March Ever. Officially.

First: it snowed this morning. Snow. White stuff. Frozen. Coming from the sky. On April 9. FML, you guys. This winter just will not die.

Second: the National Weather Service has issued the official news. March 2014 was the coldest in Vermont history. (or at least recorded history, which in some areas dates back to 1892.)
Temperatures were between 8 and 13 degrees below normal. The average temperature around the state was between 18F – 22F. 
No wonder our heating bills have been out of control.
blog hop

Our Commercial Moment Blog Hop

From L at Viva Carlos.

What are you buying next? Not your “Wish I could” list but your actual practical pony shopping list. And if its a high ticket item you are saving for what is it and when do you expect to order/get it?


I have two big-ticket items coming up in April, but neither is technically a purchase. Both of Tristan’s saddles are getting reflocked on April 21, and most likely on that same day his trailer will go in for inspection + repairs. Saddles will probably be $255, and I’ve budgeted $500 for the trailer.
After that, it’ll be tickets to Everything Equine, and while I’m there I’ll be looking for a new bit for Tristan: loose ring but thinner through the mouth than his current bit. Say another $75 for those two.
Longer term, I need a new car at the end of the summer (I’ve been saving for this for a few years now, and expect to have about a 50% down payment), and then this fall I’ll be shopping for a new riding helmet. I’ll probably go with an International, but I’d like something a little nicer and less bubble-headed than the schooling helmet I wear now.
lesson notes · road hacking

In Just-spring

when the world is mudlicious
and puddlewonderful

says e.e. cummings, to continue the poetry kick.

Two very good rides. Long road hack on Sunday, with some short bits of trot interspersed. We stopped at a big puddle of runoff to see if he would want to take a drink (he loves his puddles), and he took a long drink, then splashed and splashed with his nose, curling his lip in disgust every other splash when water went up his nose. I forgot to turn on the GPS app, but I would estimate we were out for about 60 minutes.

Monday, a lesson. We focused on hind end action: both in flexibility and in push. WT put out poles, and wanted me to capture the feeling of that push and that activity in going all the way around the ring. When I was losing it, and falling into nagging, I was to go back over the polls. It worked really well. He was really motoring around, and sitting back, and lifting through his back.

In between, the focus was on really.going.straight. Lining everything up and not letting him trick me into overbending instead of really stepping through in the shoulder-in and haunches-in.

In all, I felt really good about where I had him. I felt less good about the consistency of it: keeping him there. And I felt not so good about my own position, which was sloppy at times. In particular, heels! I’ve usually been pretty good about them, but I am doing far too much pointing with my toes and pushing off the balls of my feet.

After the lesson, the barn manager gave Tris his first Pentosan injection. It was a lot – 6ccs – in the muscle, and I had bought a slightly larger gauge of needle than is usual (20). So he definitely felt it, but was very good. I think we’ll have to get further into the loading dose before he shows any results, but I’m optimistic.

Rest of the week:
Tuesday, rest
Wednesday, longeing (maybe? work event that might keep me late)
Thursday, hack
Friday, dressage school
Saturday, rest

poetry month

Poetry Month Day 6: William Rose Benet, "The Horse Thief"

I discovered this poem while reading up for this series. I love it. It’s long, but absolutely worth it.

“The Horse Thief”
William Rose Benet

THERE he moved, cropping the grass at the purple canyon’s lip. 
His mane was mixed with the moonlight that silvered his snow-white side,
For the moon sailed out of a cloud with the wake of a spectral ship. 
I crouched and I crawled on my belly, my lariat coil looped wide.

Dimly and dark the mesas broke on the starry sky.        5 
A pall covered every color of their gorgeous glory at noon.
I smelt the yucca and mesquite, and stifled my heart’s quick cry, 
And wormed and crawled on my belly to where he moved against the moon!

Some Moorish barb was that mustang’s sire. His lines were beyond all wonder. 
From the prick of his ears to the flow of his tail he ached in my throat and eyes.        10
Steel and velvet grace! As the prophet says, God had “clothed his neck with thunder.” 
Oh, marvelous with the drifting cloud he drifted across the skies!

And then I was near at hand—crouched, and balanced, and cast the coil; 
And the moon was smothered in cloud, and the rope through my hands with a rip!
But somehow I gripped and clung, with the blood in my brain aboil,—        15 
With a turn round the rugged tree-stump there on the purple canyon’s lip.

Right into the stars he reared aloft, his red eye rolling and raging. 
He whirled and sunfished and lashed, and rocked the earth to thunder and flame.
He squealed like a regular devil horse. I was haggard and spent and aging— 
Roped clean, but almost storming clear, his fury too fierce to tame.        20

And I cursed myself for a tenderfoot moon-dazzled to play the part, 
But I was doubly desperate then, with the posse pulled out from town,
Or I’d never have tried it. I only knew I must get a mount and a start. 
The filly had snapped her foreleg short. I had had to shoot her down.

So there he struggled and strangled, and I snubbed him around the tree.        25 
Nearer, a little nearer—hoofs planted, and lolling tongue—
Till a sudden slack pitched me backward. He reared right on top of me. 
Mother of God—that moment! He missed me … and up I swung.

Somehow, gone daft completely and clawing a bunch of his mane, 
As he stumbled and tripped in the lariat, there I was—up and astride        30
And cursing for seven counties! And the mustang? Just insane! 
Crack-bang! went the rope; we cannoned off the tree—then—gods, that ride!

A rocket—that’s all, a rocket! I dug with my teeth and nails. 
Why, we never hit even the high spots (though I hardly remember things),
But I heard a monstrous booming like a thunder of flapping sails        35 
When he spread—well, call me a liar!—when he spread those wings, those wings!

So white that my eyes were blinded, thick-feathered and wide unfurled 
They beat the air into billows. We sailed, and the earth was gone.
Canyon and desert and mesa withered below, with the world. 
And then I knew that mustang; for I—was Bellerophon!        40

Yes, glad as the Greek, and mounted on a horse of the elder gods, 
With never a magic bridle or a fountain-mirror nigh!
My chaps and spurs and holster must have looked it? What’s the odds? 
I’d a leg over lightning and thunder, careering across the sky!

And forever streaming before me, fanning my forehead cool,        45 
Flowed a mane of molten silver; and just before my thighs
(As I gripped his velvet-muscled ribs, while I cursed myself for a fool), 
The steady pulse of those pinions—their wonderful fall and rise!

The bandanna I bought in Bowie blew loose and whipped from my neck. 
My shirt was stuck to my shoulders and ribboning out behind.        50
The stars were dancing, wheeling and glancing, dipping with smirk and beck. 
The clouds were flowing, dusking and glowing. We rode a roaring wind.

We soared through the silver starlight to knock at the planets’ gates. 
New shimmering constellations came whirling into our ken.
Red stars and green and golden swung out of the void that waits        55 
For man’s great last adventure; the Signs took shape—and then

I knew the lines of that Centaur the moment I saw him come! 
The musical-box of the heavens all around us rolled to a tune
That tinkled and chimed and trilled with silver sounds that struck you dumb, 
As if some archangel were grinding out the music of the moon.        60

Melody-drunk on the Milky Way, as we swept and soared hilarious, 
Full in our pathway, sudden he stood—the Centaur of the Stars,
Flashing from head and hoofs and breast! I knew him for Sagittarius. 
He reared, and bent and drew his bow. He crouched as a boxer spars.

Flung back on his haunches, weird he loomed—then leapt—end the dim void lightened.        65 
Old White Wings shied and swerved aside, and fled from the splendor-shod.
Through a flashing welter of worlds we charged. I knew why my horse was frightened.  He had two faces—a dog’s and a man’s—that Babylonian god!

Also, he followed us real as fear. Ping! went an arrow past. 
My broncho buck-jumped, humping high. We plunged … I guess that’s all!        70
I lay on the purple canyon’s lip, when I opened my eyes at last— 
Stiff and sore and my head like a drum, but I broke no bones in the fall.

So you know—and now you may string me up. Such was the way you caught me. 
Thank you for letting me tell it straight, though you never could greatly care.
For I took a horse that wasn’t mine!… But there’s one the heavens brought me,        75 
And I’ll hang right happy, because I know he is waiting for me up there.

From creamy muzzle to cannon-bone, by God, he’s a peerless wonder! 
He is steel and velvet and furnace-fire, and death’s supremest prize;
And never again shall be roped on earth that neck that is “clothed with thunder” … 
String me up, Dave! Go dig my gravel! I rode him across the skies,        80

poetry month

Poetry Month Day 5: Thomas Buchanan Read, "Sheridan’s Ride"

I almost named Tristan after Sheridan’s horse in this poem. His name was Rienzi, renamed Winchester after his arrival at the battle, and today he’s taxidermied and on display at the Smithsonian. (He doesn’t look as grim as you’d think.)

“Sheridan’s Ride”
Thomas Buchanan Read

UP from the South at break of day,  
Bringing to Winchester fresh dismay,  
The affrighted air with a shudder bore,  
Like a herald in haste, to the chieftain’s door,  
The terrible grumble, and rumble, and roar,          5
Telling the battle was on once more,  
And Sheridan twenty miles away.  
  
And wider still those billows of war,  
Thundered along the horizon’s bar;  
And louder yet into Winchester rolled   10
The roar of that red sea uncontrolled,  
Making the blood of the listener cold,  
As he thought of the stake in that fiery fray,  
And Sheridan twenty miles away.  
  
But there is a road from Winchester town,   15
A good, broad highway leading down;  
And there, through the flush of the morning light,  
A steed as black as the steeds of night,  
Was seen to pass, as with eagle flight,  
As if he knew the terrible need;   20
He stretched away with his utmost speed;  
Hills rose and fell; but his heart was gay,  
With Sheridan fifteen miles away.  
  
Still sprung from those swift hoofs, thundering South,  
The dust, like smoke from the cannon’s mouth;   25
Or the trail of a comet, sweeping faster and faster,  
Foreboding to traitors the doom of disaster.  
The heart of the steed, and the heart of the master  
Were beating like prisoners assaulting their walls,  
Impatient to be where the battle-field calls;   30
Every nerve of the charger was strained to full play,  
With Sheridan only ten miles away.  
  
Under his spurning feet the road  
Like an arrowy Alpine river flowed,  
And the landscape sped away behind   35
Like an ocean flying before the wind,  
And the steed, like a barque fed with furnace ire,  
Swept on, with his wild eyes full of fire.  
But lo! he is nearing his heart’s desire;  
He is snuffing the smoke of the roaring fray,   40
With Sheridan only five miles away.  
  
The first that the general saw were the groups  
Of stragglers, and then the retreating troops;  
What was done? what to do? a glance told him both,  
Then, striking his spurs, with a terrible oath,   45
He dashed down the line ‘mid a storm of huzzas,  
And the wave of retreat checked its course there, because  
The sight of the master compelled it to pause.  
With foam and with dust the black charger was gray;  
By the flash of his eye, and the red nostril’s play,   50
He seemed to the whole great army to say,  
“I have brought you Sheridan all the way  
From Winchester, down to save the day!”  
  
Hurrah! hurrah for Sheridan!  
Hurrah! hurrah for horse and man!   55
And when their statues are placed on high,  
Under the dome of the Union sky,  
The American soldier’s Temple of Fame;  
There with the glorious general’s name,  
Be it said, in letters both bold and bright,   60
  “Here is the steed that saved the day,  
By carrying Sheridan into the fight,  
  From Winchester, twenty miles away!”
chores

How Many Stalls Have You Cleaned?

While I did chores on Monday, I let my mind start to wander. I thought of all the times I’ve done chores over the years: all the horses I’ve lead in and out, all the water buckets I’ve dumped and filled, all the sweeping I’ve done.

I started to do the math: how many stalls have I mucked over the years?

The first time I had a regular shift of chores was January 2006 – August 2007. Let’s say that before that time, I had done ~25 stalls at summer camp and at miscellaneous riding barns before I owned Tristan.

That regular shift did not include mucking out, but it did include picking stalls. Let’s say that 3 stalls picked = 1 stall mucked. Let’s say that I did 100 days of work during that time; it was a 30 stall barn. So that’s 1000 stalls during that time. I also did ~30 days of actual stall mucking, averaging 8 stalls per shift, so there’s another 240.

From August 2007 – May 2013, believe it or not, I did not do a regular chore shift. I mucked stalls occasionally: when I wanted to pitch in by doing Tristan’s, when I took him off property, or when I was helping a friend. More often I picked out Tristan’s stall. Let’s say during those 6 years I mucked ~50 stalls.

Since May 2013, I have done probably 40 or so days of work, averaging 8 stalls each time. So there’s 320 more stalls.

All told, that adds up to 1,635 stalls mucked in my lifetime. That seems really, really low, actually!

What about you? How many stalls do you think you’ve mucked out in your lifetime?

poetry month

Poetry Month Day 4: William Henry Ogilvie "The Pearl of Them All"

This is a poem I discovered while getting ready for posting all these, and I love it.

“The Pearl of Them All”
William Henry Ogilvie

Gaily in front of the stockwhip
The horses come galloping home,
Leaping and bucking and playing
With sides all a lather of foam;
But painfully, slowly behind them,
With head to the crack of the fall,
And trying so gamely to follow
Comes limping the pearl of them all.

He is stumbling and stiff in the shoulder,
And splints from the hoof to the knee,
But never a horse on the station
Has half such a spirit as he;
Give these all the boast of their breeding
These pets of the paddock and stall,
But ten years ago not their proudest
Could live with the pearl of them all.

No journey has ever yet beat him,
No day was too heavy or hard,
He was king of the camp and the muster
And pride of the wings of the yard;
But Time is relentless to follow;
The best of us bow to his thrall;
And death, with his scythe on his shoulder,
Is dogging the pearl of them all.

I watch him go whinnying past me,
And memories come with a whirl
Of reckless, wild rides with a comrade
And laughing, gay rides with a girl —
How she decked him with lilies and love-knots
And plaited his mane at my side,
And once in the grief of a parting
She threw her arms round him and cried.
And I promised — I gave her my promise
The night that we parted in tears,
To keep and be kind to the old horse
Till Time made a burden of years;
And then for his sake and one woman’s…
So, fetch me my gun from the wall!
I have only this kindness to offer
As gift to the pearl of them all.

Here! hold him out there by the yard wing,
And don’t let him know by a sign:
Turn his head to you — ever so little!
I can’t bear his eyes to meet mine.
Then — stand still, old boy! for a moment …
These tears, how they blind as they fall!
Now, God help my hand to be steady…
Good-bye! — to the pearl of them all!