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When is enough, enough and what is too far?

I am somewhere in between deeply morose and utterly pissed off at life right now. Yesterday started with a $373 vet bill for the dog, who has begun peeing everywhere and who got a full barrage of tests to make sure she didn’t have a UTI, or a problem with her kidney function, or who even knows. Then problems with my bank, work fuckery, the computer I just got $180 worth of repairs done on refusing to work at ALL because the repair guy wiped the drivers…

It ended with me getting to the barn with plans for 35 minutes of dressage schooling…and Tristan was lame.

Not lame-lame. But…not right. Stepping off his RF a little too fast, not using himself right. Then he wouldn’t canter right – Sunday I thought that might be because of my use of the bareback pad. He was deeply reluctant to do it on the longe after I jumped off and put him through his paces. He didn’t want to land on that RF.

So I gave him bute in his PM grain, he’ll get more today in his AM grain, and we’ll see what he looks like tonight. It could be a momentary thing. It could be a more worrying long-term thing. All I know is I’ve been chasing problems in this foot for 3.5 years now and I am so fucking tired. I just wanted to ride my horse.

I am in a place I have been before, and have been increasingly the last few months. What is the right next step? I can keep chasing things with his foot, and obviously I will do everything I can to keep him happy and comfortable – and he is by no means uncomfortable, he is just not sound enough for work at the moment.

If he were 14, I wouldn’t hesitate – we’d inject that coffin joint, and probably his hocks, too. But he’s not 14 anymore. He’s 20, and he’s not in full work, and which path is the best? Basic maintenance and just enough work to keep him stretched out and comfortable, or joint injections and a stepped-up maintenance plan to keep him in work?

I still love riding my horse. I still need that release. I’m not ready to let go of that, but I’m also deeply reluctant to commit to thousands of dollars in maintenance. I don’t know what the answer is, but I do know that we’re getting closer and closer to decision time.

at least he’s cute, right?

15 thoughts on “When is enough, enough and what is too far?

  1. I share your sentiments on just wanting to ride your horse. Yay for the right front. Finances are a very personal matter and it's hard to justify additional expenses that'll only lead to more additional expenses. When it reaches a certain point, it's not going to get better. Just the hopes that it doesn't get worse. Here's to our old men.

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  2. I think you'll know. I think you probably already do; it's just hard to hear yourself through the static. I don't know what the answer is and I think it's okay to put off listening for it until you're ready. (I've done that, more than once, in both directions.) But you know Tris like the inside of your heart; I think you'll know what's right for him and for you guys as a team.

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